Jennifer Lopez landed Diddy in therapy, but it was Cameron Diaz the rapper truly regretted losing

In the golden era of Sean “Diddy” Combs’ career, when he was at the top of the music mogul game and dating some of the world’s most beautiful women, Jennifer Lopez was undoubtedly one of his most high-profile relationships. However, despite that, it turns out there was another woman who captured his heart and stayed on his mind: actress Cameron Diaz.

In a 2014 interview, Diddy revealed that Diaz was the one who truly stuck with him. The two had an on-and-off relationship from 2008 to 2012, with their connection first sparking when they attended the 2008 Academy Awards together. Although they initially downplayed their relationship, rumors swirled, and by 2011, they were reportedly involved again after Diaz’s breakup with Alex Rodriguez. Sources suggested that they shared a physical connection that quickly turned into something more public, with the pair spotted out in Beverly Hills, making out and looking very much like a couple.

Despite their chemistry, Diaz eventually found lasting love with Good Charlotte’s Benji Madden. The two met in 2014 at an event hosted by his brother Joel and Nicole Richie. They quickly became inseparable, getting engaged after just a few months of dating, and eventually tying the knot. Diaz also chose to step away from her acting career to focus on raising a family with Madden, leaving Diddy behind.

However, Diddy didn’t seem to completely let go of his feelings for Diaz. A source reported that during a dinner conversation about Diaz’s relationship with Madden, Diddy lamented, “If I could turn back time, things would be different!” He went on to call her “the sexiest girl in the world,” making it clear that his thoughts about her lingered even after she had moved on with Madden.

It seems that while Diddy may have lived a life of excess and publicized relationships, Diaz remained the one that got away—a love story that never fully came to fruition but still remains in his thoughts.